Stress Sleeper


day 8

Happy Friday, everyone! I hope you’ve had a good week and are looking forward to the weekend as much as I am. Speaking of, cross your fingers that my husband and I do a bit of cheeky shopping over the weekend! I’ve been feeling so restless about finally putting up shelves that I think we might have to hit up IKEA earlier than expected. Gah, it’s been at least eight months since we last made a trip and I swear I’ve talked about going back every month since. We both know it’s time, but we also know it’s going to be a long day (especially on the weekends).

Has anyone else been having really weird stress dreams the last few nights? In the middle of the night I flung my phone out from underneath my pillow and sent it crashing down on my glass of water (as pictured above), so clearly I’m having some crazy dreams. I can’t really remember exactly what I dreamt about, either, but it is so damn frustrating to wake up stressed and sweaty. I’m not really sure what my options are to remedy this since I’ve sort of always had difficulty falling asleep and staying asleep. Maybe I’m doomed to experience occasional bouts of troublesome sleep and I just need to learn how to make it work for me? I guess this is one of those things that proves just how much stress I endure on a subconscious level, as well as how great I am at keeping it from myself.

On a completely different note, I was thinking about why I don’t see many of my friends more often and I think I came to a conclusion. On my best days — zero anxiety, high self-esteem, feeling super great — I don’t think I have ever asked if anyone wanted to come hangout on that same day. Instead, I text people to see if they want to make plans for the weekend or the next holiday because I assume:

a) I’ll still be feeling great in a week, and b) everyone is too busy to hangout today

9 out of 10 times these assumptions are incorrect and by the time the day comes around I would rather chop off my left arm than be in a social situation.

So at the end of the day, I spend most of my time planning to hangout with my husband — planning an afternoon tea a month in advance, brainstorming anniversary excursions five months early, deciding to get out of the house and go into town at the weekend. He’s my best friend! Of course I want to spend time with him! At the same time, however, I do really love seeing our friends. The fact that everyone has their own stuff going on makes it very difficult to get the timing right, but I hope I don’t let that hold me back from at least trying to set something up in the future.

Anyway, that’s enough rambling for today. I spent a good amount of time trying to get the focus right on these pictures that I eventually just kind of gave up and rolled with it, but I gotta admit: I’m diggin’ it! So enjoy today’s photos and I’ll see you tomorrow.