As much as I’ve been trying to move away from eating food for comfort, I allowed myself that luxury today after having spent most of it in depressive funk. I feel better now, but earlier in the day I had such a hard time finding motivation to get anything done. I pretty much just sat in my pjs watching YouTube videos and grumbling to myself about how I should be doing my coursework and then reminding myself how much I didn’t want to do any of it.
Eventually I confided in my husband and begrudgingly decided to at least give the technical drawing assignment a try. The assignment called for a ‘bespoke furniture design’ and seeing as how I’ve never designed a piece of furniture and how I have very little confidence in technical drawings, I opted for a small side table. The drawing took me almost two hours to complete since I had to draw the design from multiple angles. 3D drawings are the worst, but I’m glad to say that I managed to finish it all off without it looking too terrible.
Today was a gym day but I was so out of it by the time I met up with my husband that I barely even did a workout at all. We did jump ropes for cardio and by the time we finished I felt like I was going to either pass out or be sick. I suspect my body’s still fighting off whatever illness I’ve picked up in the last week but it was so strange because I wasn’t used to feeling so incredibly tired after such a short workout. It was almost like I’d gone to the gym for the first time and done too much.
I left the gym feeling exhausted and, in all honesty, a bit defeated. We stopped by the shops on our way home and I picked up one of the best comfort foods out there: mac n cheese. Although today wasn’t my best by even a long shot, I did manage to finish off one of the assignments I’d been dreading. Tomorrow I would really like to make a list of stuff that needs to be done around the flat and work my way through it, so wish me luck with finding the motivation for it!