The last few days I’ve been in a pretty good mood, but I’ve felt really ambivalent about writing any photo journal entries. I think my resistance stems from not wanting to spoil my good mood by looking at my deeper thoughts and feelings because I know there are stressful things on my mind.

So instead of writing in this journal, I’ve just been playing Cities: Skylines on Twitch every day for multiple hours.

Reflection sometimes happens quite easily, but lately it’s felt as difficult as trying to dig a hole in the sand before the sides cave in and I couldn’t be bothered to go through the trouble. But now I’m here, sat on my pink sofa with my laptop on a Friday afternoon feeling that twinge of remorse that I’ve neglected my journal for the whole week.

In my defense, a huge part of me not wanting to write in my journal was the fact that it sucks to write about how stressed you feel and how boring your day was for multiple days. This journal is definitely a way for me to get things off my chest but it’s also something I expect I’ll look back on so I don’t want my future self to read the same entry three days in a row, you know? And sometimes it’s a little exhausting having to take photos and edit and post them in the same day, but at least I find that part a bit more rewarding.