Stuck in my Head

I’ve got a lot of things stuck in my head lately. Lots of shoulda-coulda-wouldas and “if this, then that” scenarios playing on a loop. Wondering if a younger version of me would be proud of where I am today. Hoping that I’ll figure myself out soon.

You know, sometimes I really do miss making YouTube videos. Being able to express myself using cleverly edited clips to a song I loved was one of my favorite things to do. With the way things are today I don’t have that same sort of freedom. There are too many hoops you have to jump through to be able to make videos exactly the way you want to, and I’m just too tired for all of that nonsense. Perhaps one day I’ll find the energy to play by YouTube’s rules, but until then I’ll have to fill the void in other creative ways.

Anyway, that’s just a little taste of the hurricane ploughing through my head right now. It’s not as bad as it seems, however annoying it may be.

I’m really looking forward to the weekend despite the fact that I’ve done very little of my assignments. So much for getting this module done in a timely fashion! The reason I’m looking forward to the weekend is because I could use some time to chill with very little expectation of myself. Basically I’m too hard on myself during the week and the weekend is probably one of my only opportunities to cut myself some slack. Since I’ve not been feeling my best these last few days I could probably use a couple days of guilt-free relaxation.

I think my husband and I are going to do a livestream on Twitch tomorrow around 10pm BST so I’m excited for that! I’m slowly getting more accustomed to using the controller for the PlayStation 4, although Alien: Isolation is still very difficult for my skill level, haha.

day 218 stuck in my head